The Best Damn Thing

Lame nye tak mengarut kat sini.. 'Hangat-hangat tahi ayam' That's what I could say.. Not like masa mula-mula buat this blog thingy! Excited je lebih! Well, I've survived for a three months a head spinning training. I've survived my first solo, my second solo, third solo.. I've almost finish my very first month working schedule in this new seven seven seven thing. It was a mixed feelings every time I saw 'You are check in for a foxtrot lima yankee duty'.. Around the world again is not my next thing. But since I got this offer, I grab it. And here I am, surviving in this FINE city..  What makes me "I'm here"?? The stories of Matahari is one of the reason why. I'm kind of running away and trying to start a new chapter of my life after struggling for almost two years to forget what was happened. It's painful! Elvira once asked me.. "betul ke Cah ko nak g nih??" Coz she knows me well. And I said to her.. "Aku nekad da...

At time when I saw your entry, I got a thing called missing you feelings! I missed your words or two. I missed your mike alpha mike alpha calling me! I missed a time when we are together before. I missed our conversation. I missed our argument. I missed our time we spent at Damai. I missed every single thing about you my dear Matahari! It has been a long time that I don't want to count anymore...that I've LOST you. I always and still miss you.. I saw your photo with a girl having a dinner with your mak&ayah. She must be your new girl.. A girl who can bring happiness to your family... The most important thing is... "She's not like me" She a nice person who wearing a tudung, who is not like me! Pilihan mak ayah awak.. Sierra Alpha Sierra, kenapa akhirnya cerita kita begini? Kenapa tragisnya kisah kita begini.... ?? "Saya tak nampak awak... Berkali saya buat Istikarah. Awak tiada dalam mimpi saya... Saya tak nampak awak!! Maafkan hamba yang hina ini wahai ...